My new life is still in chaos and I’m a little bummed right now.

We were supposed to move into our apartment on April 4th, the same day the other people move out and into their new build home. Then there was a delay and the move was postponed to this weekend, April 11th.

Two weeks in an apartment I didn’t know the owner of before I came to Japan. Though we have a room to ourselves it’s a crammed tiny little space that holds a large bed and as of right now six packed suitcases with clothes and stuff all over every inch of them. Yesterday and today I especially felt trapped as it was raining all the time and I couldn’t get much walking in like I did the days before.

Today I thought “a few more days” and felt like I could barely make it. Then my hsuband comes home from work and tells me that there is a hold-up and we can’t move this weekend. It’s going to be the weekend after… Maybe it shouldn’t be a big deal but I just feel so down right now and don’t trust the promise of next weekend.

The first few weeks in Japan were supposed to bring me some relaxation and time to think about my life and what I want to do. Right now I feel more stressed than ever and like I’m just wasting precious time. I really need that move, I need my own space, where I can breath and be for myself when I come home.

Don’t get me wrong, it’s super nice of the owner that we can stay here in the first place and he himself is also really nice and comforting. It’s just a difference if you are in someone elses house or in your own. But as I cannot do anything about it I’ll just have to sit it out and start my japanese life a little belated.

To end on a positive note, tomorrow my husband took a vacation day and will go with me to apply for me spouse visa (because I didn’t manage to get the process done in time in germany) which will be the next step to our hopefully someday normal course of life 🙂